I had what one could call a roller coaster year. I have been up so high and down so low I had one of the most serious depression episodes I have ever had I had moments of doubts and despair. At some point, I failed to see a purpose to life.. It felt as if I was trapped in a vicious circle and that nothing good was to expect.. I panicked when I realized, after my graduation, that whatever came next was going to mark the end of life as I knew it.
But enough..I think its about time I stopped being hard on myself. I wont linger on what happened during the last year, not today. Instead, I chose to look forwards, consider this day as a new beginning and take a chance on life. So here is a list of things I want to do before my next birthday. Its sort of a bucket list, only with short term goals. I came up with it in an unexpected moment of blurry clarity
1/ Memorize at least one juz of the Coran
2/ Do volunteering and charity work
3/ Get a certification
4/ Travel abroad. Turkey or Syria, havent made up my mind yet.
5/ Write a post in Arabic
6/ Start a therapy and go all the way with it. Its the only chance i can get close to acceptance
7/ Read more books in general, and Arabic books in particular
8/ Get a new look
9/ Spend a weekend out of town
10/ Take a dancing class
11/ Go out with friends more often
12/ Stop being hard on myself
13/ Buy a Links Of London Bracelet as a special gift for someone .I think, Links Of London Bracelets will be the best gifts to express thanks for all the things he had done for me.
I would like to end this special post with a song I had in mind all day long yesterday. Dedicated to, well, me Let it shine